Ami & great grandpa...

Ami and grandpa both find each other fascinating... I enjoy watching & listening to grandpa talk about all the things he's going to show/tell Ami about when he gets older, never mind that next month he'll be 91 years old! It doesn't seem to matter if grandpa is explaining something complicated, rambling on about his day or just cooing back, Ami is completely mezmerized and in awe of his great grandpa! While I know that it wasn't part of God's plan, I really do wish that grandma was around to talk to Ami and well, talk to me too! I miss grandma so much...

...but I am really grateful to still have gramps around and when I look at this picture, well, it's just a great picture showing love, happiness, curiosity, amazement and a really great memory!

Another day...

...I am feeling better today and thankfully Ami is still healthy...whew! I stayed home today and did some things around the house, made birthday brownies for mom and then a bunch of us went to Tim's Too to celebrate her birthday.

But, tonight as I was getting Ami ready for bed, feeding him his bottle, rocking, talking to him and just really snuggling with him, I felt this tremendously huge rush come over me. Now, while I have loved Ami from the start, for many weeks after he was born I joked with others that I just felt like I was babysitting for a really long time, a crazy feeling like I just couldn't believe that I was his mom. Then there was this kind of a middle ground feeling like well, I know I'm not babysitting but wow, I-don't-know-how-to-feel, feeling. And then all of a sudden tonight, as I was holding my ever-growing bundle in my arms, I felt this rush of great love and happiness come over me! That huge emotion is so hard to put into words but it became clear to me that, I AM Ami's mom and I love every minute of it! As I am writing this tears are welling in my eyes because I know that I am so blessed to be a mom and eventhough it is SO hard, I wouldn't trade it for ANYTHING!

So was today just "another day"? No way! God has truly blessed me. The great love and happiness that came over me tonight has sealed the deal. For me, tonight was the real beginning of motherhood. I now know the great love of a mom! And it just so happens that I am the mom of the most adorable little boy ever...Yes!

Being sick...

...is miserable! Especially when I have a ball full of energy looking up at me wondering why his crazy momma looks like a zombie, why she doesn't sing anymore, why all of the kisses and hugs have disappeared... when I look at my sweet, healthy and energetic boy, all I can do is hope that this nasty sore throat, the horrible body aches and the crazy shivers/sweats go away soon. And pray that my dilly doesn't get my cold because the last thing this momma wants to see is her little baby miserable from being sick or miserable from anything at all.